Philippians 4:7 "And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
There is a peace that God gives when we trust Christ in salvation. That peace is a sweet peace. It's a peace that cannot be explained or understood. It is one of those things that is "better felt than telt" is how I've heard someone put it. I knew it when that peace flooded my soul.
There is another peace that comes after salvation. That peace is something I've gotten to experience many times. Most recently was Wednesday night. I'm going to take this opportunity to testify of what God is doing in our family and in our church. I will also share my heart and what I've been going through for the last several months and weeks.
I'm not exactly sure when this all began. I know it was earlier this year (2007) when my husband mentioned that something was missing in our church. He began to feel God was done with him at Eagles View Baptist Church. I was the encouraging wife that I've always tried to be at first. I told him he was reading something into it that wasn't there. It began with me encouraging him and turned to me trying to convince myself that God wasn't done with him here. Deep down in my heart I felt the same way my husband did. But I didn't want to leave and see our family go through another change. Afterall...why couldn't we be like other pastors' families and stay at the same church all our lives till Jesus comes back? I was not willing to let myself believe God was done with us here. But deep down I knew He was. My husband called me when I was in NC taking care of my sister-in-law and told me he knew that God is done with him here and he shared with me the direction he felt God was leading him. He asked me to pray and see what God showed me. Well....I knew he was right but I wasn't liking it at all.
You see...we have no home to move to. We live in a house on the church property. My husband has been full-time at the church and our income has been just enough to make it each month. We have no savings to use to get a house. All of these things kept flooding my mind. The devil played on me over these things. He kept telling me that we would have to move in with my husband's parents. We love them...but that would not work for many reasons. These things contributed to my not letting God give me peace.
In God's Word I've been reading and reminded of God's faithfulness. He has also taken my mind back to the times (many times) that He has proven faithful to me and my family. That was the beginning of God giving me peace.
Peace finally came Wednesday night after our service when my husband met with the men of the church to discuss everything. They were all in agreement that they have sensed that something was not right and that God was going to be moving my husband out. My husband also shared with them that God was changing his direction in the ministry. Every man in the meeting already felt that direction was the same as my husband expressed to them. Once my husband shared with me what the men all said and how they responded...that peace came. I guess I just needed to hear that everything was going to be okay with the men of the church. Why...I don't know.
What is the direction God is leading us in you ask? My husband has been an awesome pastor. God has used him mightily. Now he will be a missionary. God is taking us from pastoring to being a missionary family. My husband is going with the Highways and Hedges Prison Ministry. You may have heard of Rock of Ages Prison Ministry...this ministry is the same. Much time is spent going into the prisons to share the gospel with inmates. They hold revival meetings in the prisons and also go in to go cell by cell to have one on one witnessing opportunities.
My husband will continue to pastor (with the encouragement of the church) for a few more months at which time we will go out on deputation to get support from local churches.
I ask that you please pray for us. This is all new to us but we all...as a family....feel we are doing God's will. I'm scared...I'm nervous...and I'm anxious. This is a new journey for us that we've not taken before....but God is faithful to those who are in the center of His will.
My husband told the church yesterday evening of what is happening. There were tears shed by some but all said they knew this was going to happen. God is going to bless us and God is going to bless Eagles View Baptist Church. Please also remember our church as they will be praying for God's direction in who to call to pastor.
I don't know what the future holds for any of us...but I know Who holds the future. And I know that His peace is oh so sweet!!!