I found this poem while going through some things I've had saved and it speaks what is in my heart during this time. I pray it might encourage someone who may be reading it and going through a very difficult time. Our hurt isn't easy to accept but God knows best. Let this poem help you and encourage you.
If my life were full of sunshine, with never a rainy day,
I wonder how I'd treat my Lord and just how much I'd pray.
If all were peace and happiness with never a stormy sea,
I wonder if I'd live as close, and could He speak to me?
If my heart were never broken and never a tear I shed,
Would I search His Word for comfort and let my soul be fed?
If through life I knew no sorrow or my body felt no pain,
Would I long for Heaven's glory and Christ's return to reign?
But my Father knows the answer; He all my weakness sees;
And perhaps He sends the storm clouds to drive me to my knees,
So that I may learn to trust Him, feel secure from all that harms,
And that I may feel beneath me His everlasting arms.