Wednesday, January 30, 2008

I'm Just Not Up To It Right Now

What am I referring to here? Well...I'm just not up to posting anything right now. I know I may lose visitors. I know I may have some lose confidence in me as one who posts devotional posts. But all I have to say is that I am human.

God blessed on Saturday when my son and his bride were married. It was beautiful as you have seen and heard me testify to. But it never fails that when God blesses a person...the enemy is right there to TRY to steal that blessing. Well...he is trying to steal it but I'm not going to give it over easily. Something has happened in my life that is very hard to swallow. A person tries to obey God and do what they know to be right and sometimes it just backfires on you. We went through this same trial in our home about a month ago and things ended up working out to God be the glory. Well....here we are again going through the same trial and this time it isn't turning out quite the same. But when other people are involved it doesn't involve just our will but it involves their will too. And people don't always make the right choices. It is heart-breaking what is happening and I don't want to turn on my Lord and Saviour and forsake Him. And with Him as my helper and remembering what He has done in my life and where He brought me from....I won't.

My heart is broken and I just need to take a break for a bit (not sure how long) to pray and just focus on the Lord right now. I NEED your prayers in this. God is able to work all of this out. There is so much change forthcoming in our lives with having to move out of our current home and then changing churches and going out on deputation. It is a bit over-whelming. But at the same time I know that all these upcoming changes are in the will of God and when a family seeks to do God's will the enemy is there to try to shake things up. And that is what is happening. I just hate it when people involved in His will being done have to make things difficult or even hurtful. I'm trying to rejoice in all that is happening because I know God will get the glory as He always has...but it's hard to see how right now. So many bad things can come out of all of this and that is scary.

I will be checking all of your blogs. You all have helped me in the past when you didn't know I was struggling with anything and I'm praying that one of you if not some of you will have something that the Lord can use to help me through this. So I'm not forsaking you...I just can't concentrate on putting up posts right now. I love you all and thank you for your prayers and your understanding in this.

God is still on His throne. I believe that!!

32 comments:

Tiffany said...

Julie you are in my prayers. Just remember that whatever it is God will handle it and in the end He will prevail. God bless you and your family.

Lyndy said...

Sis Julie,

I can so relate to where you are after the last year that I have had. Please know that I am praying for you and your precious family. I am here for you if you need to talk.

Sending you big hugs. You are so sweet; it just breaks my heart to know that you are hurting.

Love you much, Lyndy

Leah said...

(((((sis julie)))) I'll br praying for you. It's so hard to be patient when going through trial (for me anyway)we want to know how the story ends and how God is glorified. Praying the Lord gives you patients and quietness. Sometimes I just feel "lost" (not as in unsaved) and this verse gets me through alot. Rom 8:26 Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.

HsKubes said...

Oh, Julie, I can understand a situation like this. Praying for you, your family, and others involved. Praying the Lord will use it to draw you even nearer to Him and that He will give you the grace, strength, and wisdom and that His name will be glorified.

~ Christina

"My brethren, count it all joy
when ye fall into divers temptations;
Knowing this, that the trying
of your faith worketh patience.
But let patience have her perfect work,
that ye may be perfect and entire,
wanting nothing.
If any of you lack wisdom,
let him ask of God,
that giveth to all men liberally,
and upbraideth not;
and it shall be given him.
But let him ask in faith,
nothing wavering..."
~ James 1:2-6a

Bro Tim said...

Mrs Julie you haven't lost this reader. We are praying. We love you all.

Bro Tim

Jodi said...

((Sis. Julie)) ~

Your post made me think of the Apostle Paul in the book of Acts when he knows he's being led to go to Jerusalem. As he made his way towards Jerusalem, everywhere he went, he was encouraged *not* to make the trip. But he went anyway because he felt the Spirit leading him.

And what everybody said did come true ... he was arrested and put in prison. But God came to him while he was in prison. The following night the Lord stood near Paul and said, "Take courage! As you have testified about me in Jerusalem, so you must also testify in Rome." Acts 23:11

Sometimes well-meaning, fellow believers throw out discouragement. In Paul's case was it God's way of preparing him? [They were *accurately* prophesying.] Or just negative thinking? I'm not completely sure. But Paul was faithful to what he knew God was calling him to do - despite the naysayers. And God rewarded his faithfulness by coming to him in his hour need with re-assurance that he had chosen the right path.

Praying for you, dear one, as the you spend that sweet time with the Lord. He is faithful to direct our paths! (and boy did I need to write that last sentence for myself today! Yes, He IS faithful to direct our paths. Mmm - 'tis so sweet to trust in Jesus.)

Hugs to you, sweetie.
Jodi

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PamelaK said...

Sis Julie -
I will definitely be praying for you!!
And thank you for posting about the ceremony!
PamelaK

Karen said...

I've been through a few of those in the past few years for certain. Just remember, what satan intends for harm, God can use for his glory...whether others involved are glorifying Him or not.

Your 'stress-o-meter' probably is off the charts with all the life changes. Even when changes are good ones, they're still emotional and can deplete us.

Sleep plenty, pray more, and eat healthy! Lots of folks will be praying for you...that God would show you what you are supposed to do and guard your heart and mind as well.

A blogging break can be a good thing. Everyone will understand.

Daughter of the King said...

TOP of my PRAYER list you go.
Deby
(((((((HUGS)))))

Mimi said...

Sis. Julie,
I am so very sorry that you are being hurt by other Christians...
When fellow Christians do or say something to hurt us.. it seems to hurt more than when worldly people do or say the same thing...
I am so sorry that you have to move...but what God has in store for you will only be better than what you have now...
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of Life that God has promised to those who love him
I wish I could take your hurt away, but I can't so I will pray for God to give you peace through this latest trial...
I hope you don't have to move too far away from Ronnie and Jessica..
Be Encouraged!
Mimi

Mrs.B said...

Oh Julie,

I'm so sorry that you're going through such a difficult time. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs and Blessings,
~Mrs.B

A Note From Theresa said...

What ever it is that is bringing you down, I pray that the Lord will help you though this.

Hugs and prayers

Mrs. C said...

((Sis. Julie)),
You are in my prayer! :)

Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Phil. 4:6-7

Blessings,
Mrs. C

Lisa said...

Sister Julie
Your blogs was one the first few blogs I started reading. I used to go to church with sister Kristi (we moved)from Thimble thoughts, so I visited you many times. I have to say you have Inspired and uplifted me so many times and I just wanted you know this. I will be praying for your situation.God is able! Love In Christ. Lisa

Sarah said...

{{{{Sis Julie}}}}

maranatha777 said...

Oh Sis, Don't let ole slew foot get his way in this matter. Be encouraged in the Lord!!! Remember, there are beautiful grapes in the same valley as those giants so there are beautiful grapes awaiting you :-)

Nicholas Z. Cardot said...

I have no idea what trial you are referring to yet I have prayed for you about this issue and I will continue to pray. Take as much time as you need. Just let us know once in a while how the Lord is working. Stay true...I know that you will! God bless.

Nikki said...

aw, ((((Julie)))) I'm praying for you! Love you lots-o!!

Sis. Julie said...

Thank you so much ladies!! Your sweet comments and your prayers mean so much!! I love each of you and you are truly dedicated viewers and friends. Thank you a million times over for your support and your prayers. This will all work out eventually.

Heather said...

(((Sis Julie)))These are such hard times and the enemy is trying harder than ever...my heart has been so burdened this past week to pray-sometimes I don't even know what I am praying for. I feel like I'm out of tears when I get done praying...you are strong in the Lord dear sister. Hold on...He is on the way to minister to your spirit

JJutzi said...

Nothing profound -- just know I am praying for you, Sister. (Juanita of Xanga)

Vicki said...

I've read your blog for a long time, but have never commented before. I just want to say that your blog has been a real blessing to me and that you and your family are in my prayers right now.
I'm sorry if this comes through as anonymous - I don't have a blog.

Vicki

e-Mom said...

I understand your feelings completely... so go enjoy your break from blogging. May the Lord surround you with His peace and comfort during this challenging time.

{{{Hugs}}} e-Mom

Sis. Julie said...

haus frau...I'm sorry that your comment got lost. I didn't delete it. I really don't know what happened. But I did get your second one. Thank you for your prayers!!

Love you!!

Chyrll said...

Sis Julie,
Praying for you and Lord willing it will come to pass. I am a pastor's wife and we were missionaries for 12 years. So I know what it is like. Just keep your eyes on the Lord. God Bless.

Dave said...

Praying!! You will not lose this reader!

Dave

Christopher Cline said...

Sis Julie,
My wife and I will always pray for you and your family.
You are such a blessing to others and I know the Lord will bless you all.


Lord Bless...

Mimi said...

Sis Julie,
just stopped by this evening to tell you that I prayed for you today... and I will continue praying that things will work out in God's timing and in his own way
I pray that you will be blessed by the outcome...
{{{Hugs}}}
Mimi

JJutzi said...

Dear Sister Julie -- You have been on my heart today. I just wanted to share some thoughts now that I've had more time after reading your post. It is typical of our enemy, when we have had a time of experiencing God's favor and blessing on our lives and of those we love (as you have had recently with Ronnie and Jessica's wedding), to come in hard to tear us down. And God has promised us in Isaiah 59:19, "When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the LORD shall lift up a standard against him." I am praying that you will experience that in a very personal way.

This devotional thought came across my desk today and I thought of you. Perhaps it will minister to you, too. .....

GOD ALWAYS HEARS
Friends may be unfaithful, but the LORD will not turn away from the gracious soul; on the contrary, He will hear all its desires. The prophet says, "Keep the doors of thy mouth from her that lieth in thy bosom. A man's enemies are the men of his own house." This is a wretched state of affairs; but even in such a case the Best Friend remains true, and we may tell Him all our grief.

Our wisdom is to look unto the LORD and not to quarrel with men or women. If our loving appeals are disregarded by our relatives, let us wait upon the God of our salvation, for He will hear us -- He will hear us all the more because of the unkindness and oppression of others, and we shall soon have reason to cry, "Rejoice not against me, O mine enemy!"

Because God is the living God, He can hear; because He is a loving God, He will hear; because He is our covenant God, He has bound Himself to hear us. If we can each one speak of Him as "My God," we may with absolute certainty say, "My God will hear me." Come, then, O bleeding heart, and let thy sorrows tell themselves out to the LORD thy God! I will bow the knee in secret and inwardly whisper, "My God will hear me."
From "A Treasury of Daily Devotionals" by C.H. Spurgeon

Continuing to pray -- Juanita

Anonymous said...

So Sorry!!!
Praying for you!

East Coast Girl

Michelle said...

I am sure praying for you and your family

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