What am I referring to here? Well...I'm just not up to posting anything right now. I know I may lose visitors. I know I may have some lose confidence in me as one who posts devotional posts. But all I have to say is that I am human.
God blessed on Saturday when my son and his bride were married. It was beautiful as you have seen and heard me testify to. But it never fails that when God blesses a person...the enemy is right there to TRY to steal that blessing. Well...he is trying to steal it but I'm not going to give it over easily. Something has happened in my life that is very hard to swallow. A person tries to obey God and do what they know to be right and sometimes it just backfires on you. We went through this same trial in our home about a month ago and things ended up working out to God be the glory. Well....here we are again going through the same trial and this time it isn't turning out quite the same. But when other people are involved it doesn't involve just our will but it involves their will too. And people don't always make the right choices. It is heart-breaking what is happening and I don't want to turn on my Lord and Saviour and forsake Him. And with Him as my helper and remembering what He has done in my life and where He brought me from....I won't.
My heart is broken and I just need to take a break for a bit (not sure how long) to pray and just focus on the Lord right now. I NEED your prayers in this. God is able to work all of this out. There is so much change forthcoming in our lives with having to move out of our current home and then changing churches and going out on deputation. It is a bit over-whelming. But at the same time I know that all these upcoming changes are in the will of God and when a family seeks to do God's will the enemy is there to try to shake things up. And that is what is happening. I just hate it when people involved in His will being done have to make things difficult or even hurtful. I'm trying to rejoice in all that is happening because I know God will get the glory as He always has...but it's hard to see how right now. So many bad things can come out of all of this and that is scary.
I will be checking all of your blogs. You all have helped me in the past when you didn't know I was struggling with anything and I'm praying that one of you if not some of you will have something that the Lord can use to help me through this. So I'm not forsaking you...I just can't concentrate on putting up posts right now. I love you all and thank you for your prayers and your understanding in this.
God is still on His throne. I believe that!!